A scar on my heart (thoughts from a child online sex abuse victim)

Sometimes you forget about your past. You forget about being a victim. Forget about the time that you were manipulated and used. Forget that you abandoned your morals to please a man who just wanted to use your body. Forget that you willingly did so because you thought you loved him. He made you fall … Continue reading A scar on my heart (thoughts from a child online sex abuse victim)

how much of a “friendship” to expect in a fwb situation

dear diary, I’ve been starting to hook up with a guy on my tour through Europe. He’s a nice guy and all but he never takes initiative (I’ve had to make most of the first moves) and isn’t very physical affectionate. Now being someone who’s big on physical touch as my love language, I need … Continue reading how much of a “friendship” to expect in a fwb situation

how do you know when to let go

It’s crazy when someone that used to mean the world to you. Someone you would’ve given your life for without hesitation starts slowly becoming a stranger. The conversations become more formal. Months go by without talking. Apologies of “sorry my life is just so busy” becomes the norm. Sometimes it hurts. That kind of hurt … Continue reading how do you know when to let go

friend to all, best friend to none

"The prettiest smiles hide the deepest secrets. The prettiest eyes have cried the most tears. The kindest hearts have felt the most pain." Dear Diary, Ever since I was a young girl, I've been self conscious about my weight. My dad would tell me that if only I was skinner, I'd have more friends, be … Continue reading friend to all, best friend to none

let’s be young and reckless, come over

"Come Over"- Kenny Chesney "Being young is not about doing right. It's about feeling right. When we are young, we need that adrenaline to keep moving on. We have to stand up after failing, to smile after the tears and most of all... to live after love. So resist, don't give up, love, laugh, sing, … Continue reading let’s be young and reckless, come over

waiting for a text is modern torture

Dear Diary, Should you break things off with someone you're dating if you fear that you may like them more than they like you? So I'm in this weird relationship thingy (see my past posts for reference). He isn't huge on being romantic or sweet verbally. He communicates how he feels romantically though actions. Like … Continue reading waiting for a text is modern torture